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Adjust Your Sails
6 min readOct 19, 2023

What you have now is a placeholder for what is to come.

The moment you decide to correct yourself, to intentionally dive into your darkness, to elevate and find yourself worthy, someone in the world will make you feel bad for choosing to find the good. They will want you to shame yourself into the small box they’ve created for you.

They have no idea the embarrassment, shame, or trauma you had to sort through to get where you are now. But, I promise you, that shit is not personal. You have to learn this before you can really work through anything in your life. Taking it personal is a sure way to fail.

They are uncomfortable because you have grown comfortable in your vulnerable authenticity, and maybe they aren’t ready for that in themselves. It’s a reflection of the love hate relationship inside of them, and it’s being projected onto you. Don’t take their darkness on as your own.

They are still in a stage of darkness you’ve already sat through. It can be so difficult during those stages to find genuine happiness for those who seemingly have more than you in some capacity. They don’t know how hard you’ve worked to understand happiness is a series of personal choices.

There are people in the world who have no idea how uncomfortable you’ve forced yourself to be in order to get to this point. Maybe they haven’t hit their rock bottom and crawled their way to the top like you. It doesn’t make you better than them, and you don’t owe them to keep yourself small.

You have changed. You are not the same person you used to be. It’s okay to acknowledge past versions of yourself, but do it in a way that honors that version for the work and effort they put in to get you where you are. You are not the same, and that took giant effort at all stages.

When you realize the problem the whole time is your low standards and lack of boundaries people will challenge you. They will make you feel like you’re being cocky or arrogant. “You think you’re all that”. Yes, yes I do, because thinking I wasn’t sure wasn’t conducive to happiness.

I am worthy and abundant. I am happy and whole. That foundation lays within me and cannot be taken without consent. I am my own mental and emotional stability. I am the only one who can truly ground and balance…

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Adjust Your Sails

You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors. ― Andrew Boyd