New Moon in Cancer: Reclaiming your Origin Story
Today we are here to bust through illusions.
If this is meant for you, it will resonate more than anything you’ve ever heard in your life. If you’re just waking up, perhaps it intrigues you, and propels you into further study. And, if it isn’t for you, go swim in your shame and settle for what will be nothing but regret on your death bed.
I’m not here to force you into anything.
We live in a matrix that is not a sci-fi concept. It’s more like an invisible web of systems, beliefs, structures, that try to tell us what is normal, acceptable, and true.
There is no robot overlord, though late stage capitalism and Trump are sure giving that try. It’s subtler. Sneakier.
Built from generations of conditioning.
Let’s break it down:
The Matrix = The Inherited Script
It tells you:
- Success means productivity.
- Worth is earned, not inherent.
- Emotions make you weak.
- Authority is always external.
- Structure = masculine. Flow = feminine.
- Women are nurturers. Men are protectors.
- Love is earned through performance.
- Safety comes from pleasing or providing.
Sound familiar?
That’s the matrix.
It programs you through:
- School systems that teach obedience over critical thinking.
- Media that sells you unattainable beauty, romance, and lifestyle standards.
- Religions that often moralize suffering, especially for women.
- Family structures that pass down trauma disguised as tradition.
- Politics and capitalism that profit from you staying insecure, afraid, and consuming.
You’re not just navigating the world, you’re decoding a lie you were taught to believe is truth.
Escaping the Matrix = Remembering Wholeness
Not by running away, but by seeing through it.
Here’s what that looks like:
- Deprogramming: Noticing where your thoughts came from and whether they serve you.
- Sovereignty: Choosing your truth, even when it defies the norm.
- Regulation: Building a nervous system that isn’t hijacked by urgency, guilt, or shame.
- Embodiment: Living from the inside out, not chasing identity externally.
You don’t escape the matrix by:
- Performing your healing for validation.
- Shaming yourself for still reacting.
- Trying to “ascend” and bypass being human.
- Waiting for a savior (romantic, spiritual, or otherwise).
What replaces the matrix?
Wholeness. Inner authority. Divine design. The knowing that you were never broken — just buried under scripts you didn’t choose. It is you reclaiming reality. You’re not unplugging from the matrix to ascend. You’re rewriting it to reflect truth, connection, and sacred sovereignty.
The worst thing spirituality could have done was convince you to ascend outside of your body, when real manifestation and safety is actually found when you embody your truth deeply within you.
The Kingdom of God is within.
So what do I mean when I tell you to sit in your shit?
I mean when you feel rage, feel it so fully the roof is threatened to be blown off the house. I don’t mean react in it. I mean feel it without projecting it. Get up and stretch, move your body, be angry. Same for grief, jealousy, whatever the uncomfortable emotion is.
You’re not weak for having it. You’re human. And, you’re powerful for not numbing, escaping, or projecting. I want you to own what is yours, releasing what is not. “This is my pattern, but not anymore.” “That was a projection of old pain, I will do better next time.”
There is no shame. You’re afraid, not broken and unworthy.
You don’t rush for a spiritual reframe or to attach a lesson to the pain. Feeling the pain is the evolved position. The understanding of the lesson can come later, and it will. So, just feel for now.
It’s duality and the understanding of it. For example, I am facing eviction and a host of other things, but I don’t live in scarcity anymore. So, as this process has played out everything is just taken care of. This will be, too.
But this morning I got angry. I was so frustrated and I let myself feel it. And when someone else started to unload their overwhelm onto me I simply said, “You’re so valid for all you just said, but I was overwhelmed already before you came in here. I do not have the capacity right now.”
So, do that. And as you’re sitting there guilt might come up. Don’t shame and don’t cave. You say, I see that fear and understand why it exists, but I am not here to prove my worth. I just embodied it. It’s lives IN me.
You don’t rush to regulate. You don’t try to claw your way out. Slap affirmation on top hoping it roots. You just sit there. Let your body metabolize what your mind can’t logic away.
It’s not:
- Self-pity.
- Self-punishment.
- Staying stuck forever.
It’s choosing presence over pretense.
And here’s the kicker:
Your nervous system learns safety from this.
You show your body:
“I can be in discomfort without abandoning myself.”
That is sacred regulation.
That’s the real flex.
You know you’ve sat in your shit when:
- You feel tender but clear.
- The loop is quieter.
- The impulse to perform is gone.
- You’re not begging for relief — you are the relief.
Everyone said this New Moon was going to feel so fantastic and lucky, and I refrained from agreement. The Moon does rule Cancer and is at home there. However, Jupiter doesn’t just give you blessings. He expands whatever he touches.
In 2020, every time Jupiter (in fall) conjoined Pluto in Capricorn, we saw huge surges in Covid. I’d think we could agree that wasn’t a blessing
or lucky part of that transit.
Let’s break it down:
Moon=Emotions
Sun= Identity and Ego
Jupiter= Expansion and faith
In the sign of Cancer this has to do with family karma. With home, family, parents, and supposed to be protectors. This means our emotions are tied to our ego and identity, and we need to have faith that we can expand beyond inherited frameworks.
The square to Saturn in Aries is asking you if your structure, your baseline, is rooted in sovereignty or not.
Are you leading your life, or still performing worthiness for approval? Are your boundaries built from your sovereignty or your survival mode?
Aries just likes a good fight, but Saturn here is saying, stop and think about what you’re actually fighting for. More of your own erasure, resentment, and pain? Or your purpose and destiny?
That’s emotional truth, self-concept, and spiritual expansion holding hands and saying…
“Let’s talk about your origin story, babe.”
Not the one you were handed.
The one you’re about to reclaim.
Women, in particular, have had enough. Softness without sovereignty is chosen suffering. The world has convinced us a nuclear family consists of a feminine, a masculine, and children they create together.
But, this tells men they are weak if they tap into their flow, and teaches women that structure only comes from a man. And we have a world of codependent, overly emotional manipulators calling trauma bonds love.
And then the square to Neptune slides in, dreamy and disorienting, whispering:
Are you still fantasizing that your role is to hold everyone else’s pain like it’s your payment for being loved? Where are you spiritually bypassing your own depletion because “they need you”?
Your emotional expansion begins where your savior complex ends.
This is a call to every woman still trying
to prove her worth through patience,
performance, or being someone’s
energetic wet nurse.
STOP.
And if you’re not sure how, I got you.
Let’s start by learning your chart, or sitting
in co-regulation and safety as we expand your center,
your nervous system capacity,
and your internal sense of safety
to an unfuckwithable level.
