Motherhood

Becoming a mother is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. Each year of their lives I grow more self-aware than the year before. It’s really tough for me to sit with the things my children have experienced. It brings me more shame than anything else in the world could ever bring me. There is no one who could judge me harsher than I judge myself.

But, I intentionally notice when I am in judgment, so I can walk myself out of it. Having children absolutely unraveled and rebuilt me. It cracked me open and forced me to sit and learn my own wounds. Took me to the edge at times along the way, but ultimately led to balance and peace.

It has been the most beautiful journey. The greatest lesson my children have taught me is that I have to accept myself. That in order for them to learn self-acceptance they need to see it modeled. Today my daughter was feeling imposter syndrome in the car over changes in her life.

That’s such a normal thing to experience. Let’s just be vulnerable and honest about that, and remind each other we are all worthy of life. I am still the most imperfect mother, but I have apologized for all the things my choices brought them, and proved I was sorry by choosing differently.

By feeling the imposter syndrome, working through what others were thinking of me, sitting so deep in it I almost drowned. Bringing my higher self…