I am so tired of people claiming impatience, and thinking it’s an acceptable excuse to be an asshole. Being an asshole is not something to brag about, and you do not deserve a prize. It’s literally the easiest thing in the world to be is an asshole. It doesn’t take skill or heart.
Today I learned I still feel small in the presence of certain people. It’s up to me to assert myself anyway. To be aware that I have the tendency to react to intimidation (whether real or imagined) with a fawn response. To remind myself that reacting in that response isn’t in anyone’s best interest; least of all my own best interest. And no one cares more about that than me.
Mars is approaching a conjunction to Neptune and patient anger is what comes to mind for me. Neptune in Pisces can blur boundaries more than usual, but you can use that energy to tap into the divine and your higher self. Mars is action, drive, passion, and anger.
It’s like this quiet anger building toward crescendo. I’m here to remind you don’t scream. Do not give anyone in this world the satisfaction of hearing you lose your shit, and don’t say things you cannot take back. Channel your anger into your own growth and evolution. Mars will conjunct Jupiter next in Aries.
If you’re in a situation you know in your soul is not for you, but procrastinating that isn’t patience. Suffering or staying with someone out of duty or obligation isn’t heroic. Patience is not permission for someone else to continuously harm you or make you uncomfortable.
Patience is the ability to set healthy boundaries and enforce them from a space of self-respect. I don’t have to feel unafraid to act in courage. I do not have to allow someone’s projection of insecurity to make me act small and frightened. Neither should I project my own onto them.
This is about us having blind faith. We may not feel confident, ready, or on our game, but we must act otherwise. We must make choices that someone with confidence and self-respect would make, trusting the universe that the feelings of confidence and self-respect will follow the actions.