Growth Mindset

I have an hour before my next client, and I don’t know what this piece will look like. Only that I felt like writing. Sometimes when you develop a growth mindset with purpose and intention you become frustrated easily with others. With the people who refuse to grow with you, or who don’t seem to be growing fast enough. But it’s all to no avail, honestly.

I’ve been thinking a lot today about how different I am. I began truly searching how to heal and overcome my trauma so many years ago. I only got married in 2007 because I thought God was the way to do that. That Christianity would save us. Thus, I’ve been taking my journey seriously for at least fourteen years now. That part didn’t end well, but was necessary.

Something that would make me feel so insecure and unworthy back then doesn’t do that today. It simply disappoints me. When you are someone who lives your life as loud and open as I do, all of it, dark and light, people don’t know what to make of you. My partner and I watched Brene Brown speak her Call to Courage speech, and I resonated wholeheartedly; as did he.

Being vulnerable isn’t easy for us to do, and so when other people decide to be vulnerable it can make us afraid. We are all so god damn afraid to be uncomfortable for even a moment. We pretend putting on a brave face and not talking about hard things is real strength, but it couldn’t be more weak.