Ending September: Closing Time
A while back I wrote about the shift we are in. How the energy up until now had us scrambling for external validation and outside approval. But now we are being pushed into validating ourselves. Into being devoted to the internal work of self-belief, self-respect, and self-worth.
This final week of September, as we move into the beginning of October, prepare yourself. Fate has come to force us into action. I wrote a blog previously covering the entire month of September. I gave a preface for each week and what it would feel like.
Find that here:
This last week packs a powerful punch. The week starts off Monday a bit rough with the Moon in Gemini. We are experiencing dual emotions about something. On one hand, we have enough information to know we need to move on, but on the other we are trying to convince ourselves to stay.
As the Moon squares Saturn in Pisces the demand to go within and be honest about where we are holding ourselves back gets loud. As she conjuncts Jupiter in Gemini our emotions could explode and feel larger than life. You may be seeking another sign, and you’ll probably get it.
The truth is you do not need another sign. What good does it do to ask for more signs when the signs you’ve already been given haven’t been good enough? When you’re getting all the signs, but prolonging the inevitable? Because it’s when you finally accept the inevitable that liberations comes.
On Tuesday, we get information that may be confusing. We are facing something that could be an illusion, and must be careful to discern fantasy from reality. We can trust our thoughts and ideas, and by the end of the day there is a breakthrough or solution that arrives.
There is unexpected communication or news of some kind that propels you into the next move. But the way to get there is to have the uncomfortable conversations you’ve been avoiding. The Moon is in Cancer now and we just want to feel safe, nurtured, and protected. It’s become incredibly clear where that is lacking in our current relationships.
Be tender with yourself during our half-moon crisis. As the Moon in Cancer squares off with the Sun, who is in fall in Libra. You want everything to feel fair and harmonious, but big steps often start with a shockwave. Sometimes the only way to peace is to enter the war.
Be tender with yourself, but don’t allow yourself to be passive aggressive and hold back. Now is not the time to stay small. We are being forced to confront what feels fake in our lives. What we know deep down is no longer serving us.
I listened to this beautiful TikTok yesterday. A woman was asked, “How do you get over someone?” And she answered, “The first thing you must understand is that nobody belongs to you. Nobody is your property. And that people come into your life for a reason, for a mission, for a purpose.
If someone is in your life right now, celebrate it, enjoy it, cherish it because nobody and nothing lasts forever. Because once somebody comes to your life that person has come with a purpose, so once that person’s purpose in your life is met, that person is going to go away.
That’s why it’s important for you to let go. You can be connected to everyone, but be attached to no one because nobody belongs to you. And you don’t get over someone. You simply accept the fact that your life goes on without them.”
By Wednesday we are finding solutions and inspiration through creative processing. Through being intentional. It’s as if even though the clouds are still there you can see them starting to part. You’re starting to tap more into your power and shift your mindset.
You may feel a bit crabby and moody about what you have to do next, but you can’t avoid what you have to do. Accept the fact that you can do hard things. Understand that while the emotions of a moment last so much longer than the moment they do eventually fade and change.
You don’t have to feel worthy to know that you are. And if you act from a space of self-respect and self-worth, regardless of how you feel, the right feelings will eventually follow. What are your real obligations?
Because this is the day we see the first of three trines between Mars in Cancer and Saturn in Pisces. This is us understanding fully what we need to do in order to create safer, more protective and loving connections in our lives, but not wanting to face the crumbling of where we are first.
But you cannot have the new life without giving up the old one first, and spending some time integrating in between.
We get to Thursday and we want everything to be diplomatic and fair. Mercury is entering Libra, the Moon is sextile Uranus, trine Neptune, and opposing Pluto before moving into Leo in a sextile to Mercury. We are unnerved at the conversations we have to have.
There is this emotional back and forth with ourselves and each other. There are things outside of ourselves influencing us in this moment. We know it’s closing time. And in spite of the back and forth we are confident in what we must acknowledge in ourselves and others.
Do not compromise your core values any further. We are no longer abandoning ourselves in favor of others not abandoning us. You know this hard thing is coming. You can feel it, but keep putting it off.
Anything you lose from speaking your truth is not a loss; it’s alignment.
On Friday we reach the state that Cam White says is NOT hot girl shit. We may be full of pride and expectation, and walk away completely let down. We want to feel seen, heard, and validated. For a moment it may seem like the person we want it from the most is still not offering it.
However, in that scenario we are still delaying the inevitable. We are still being fueled by fallen or wounded ego. Trying to get the same thing we’ve begged for, for so long. Relationship issues on steroids may come in to play today. Wherever there is not substantive value or reciprocation we are ready to just throw it all away and start over.
You are not responsible for how others react or respond to hearing your truth. You are responsible for how you react and respond should their response trigger you. Every time you project responsibility for your emotions onto someone else, and use that as an excuse to act out of character, you’re handing them your only real power.
By Saturday we feel like we can take on the whole world. Whether we are doing it from inspiration or spite we may overbook ourselves. The Moon in Leo sextile Jupiter in Gemini has us feeling like we can do it all, but the later square to Uranus in Taurus says unexpected things are coming up.
We are tied to this idea of expansion. Have a million ideas with only slight clarity. Trying to navigate with our hearts and minds on the same page. But remember, it’s not what you feel. It’s what you KNOW. There is some sort of shock or destabilization. Rumination over tower moments. A feeling that you never had control as it all crumbles around you.
And your desperate attempts to hold it all together is preventing what is meant for you. It’s holding back your rewards. The Universe isn’t punishing you. It’s waiting on you to catch up with your vortex. You keep asking for the same thing from people you know will never give it to you.
It’s on Sunday shit gets deep. We are under no more illusions about who is draining our energy the most. Where we have continued to abandon ourselves in favor of not disappointing anyone else. There are likely karmic temptations from the past. But what happened then is a good indicator of what will happen now should you entertain that past.
You have to be uncomfortable to change your life. Stop putting off the inevitable. It does seem a bit easier for us to let go of what we’ve been clinging to for so long now. Address what doesn’t feel safe and nurturing. Understand that the right thing is not always the feel good thing. Be devoted to your inner work and the intuitive understanding.
We end September on a Monday. You are ready to move forward, in spite of things feeling so uncertain. You’ve acknowledged what isn’t safe and nurturing in your life. What hasn’t ever felt safe and nurturing, or if it did hasn’t in a very long time.
This energy is trying to get us to understand how it works. You don’t make moves on impulse. You go within and ask yourself what move would ultimately bring you a sense of security, protection, and nurturing. You want surefire answers, but are being asked to trust fall into it.
You have the power in every relationship you are in. Because you have the power to walk away from it. Don’t project blame onto the other person if you’re the one choosing to stay and settle for less. Boundaries aren’t about them. They are about you creating a reciprocal foundation for your life, and for anyone who wants access to it.
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