Embracing Ourselves

Today the Moon is in Pisces, so perhaps that’s why out of nowhere I felt like getting all deep and personal. That’s my 8th house, and I have my South Node, Part of Fortune, Vesta, Pholus, and Juno there. In fact, outside of Uranus in my Scorpio 4th house those are my only water placements.

When I was younger I lived a lot in my head. I could create entire worlds within and escape everyday life so easily. I had to work through shame over that because I can’t tell you how many times my kids would call my name, want my attention, and it took them ten tries to get it. No, that isn’t funny.

I guess I used to think it was because I just accepted that’s how I am. I hadn’t learned I could change it, that my brain is like a computer, and I can re-write old programming. It made my children feel as if they weren’t important enough for me to just take the time. I will take all the time today.

Because of my own childhood PTSD I had learned to escape in the stories in my head. To create entire visions of amazing lives I didn’t think I’d ever get to live. I would disassociate so hard it took all someone’s might to bring me back. Today I am intentionally present. I’ve evolved, thank goodness.

I suppose my main reason for writing this is to remind you that until you embrace your whole self, find love and compassion for your whole self, nothing much…