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Dreamy State of Mind
I’m in such a dreamy state of mind. Last night John, myself, my mother, and my son were sitting in our room planning our wedding. No, he hasn’t proposed yet, but we all know he is going to. I feel like the luckiest woman alive, and everyday I am grateful.
This man swore he would never get married if he didn’t find the one. That he was only doing it once because it was that important to him. I never wanted some big, flashy, fancy wedding, but I did want to be enough for a man to want to marry, to want to build a life with, to love and grow old together.
To know that what started between us twenty years ago is coming to a culmination now makes me smile. To know how he has always stated he would only do it once with the right woman, and he wants to do that with me. To know that his mother said all the women in the past she knew weren’t good for him, but how she knows I’m the one.
I feel incredibly blessed. That doesn’t mean that there are not things happening in my life that are difficult, challenging, sorrowful, or hard to deal with. I’m just allowing myself to live in each moment. To embrace the present and make practical plans for the future, and just be in that flow state. Not allowing the sadness to steal my joy, or the joy to ignore the sadness.
Uranus is transiting my tenth house and is exactly trine my 2nd house Saturn. My…
