Dear Self

Adjust Your Sails
7 min readJan 19, 2021

Where do I even begin? Last year felt like ten years rolled into one. From new love that I lost, twice, to the pandemic, to fluctuations in finances, and not being allowed to work because I’m high-risk. At home jobs can’t be done, either, because I have low income Internet, and it’s not fast enough.

I poured myself into studying astrology and trying to figure out how I can build a business for myself. The truth is, I hate working for other people. I hate working for big organizations that take advantage of your time and energy, pay you crappy wages, and don’t provide good benefits. All while wondering why they can’t keep any employees.

For years I was heavily involved in politics to try and change things. The last two years I worked on so many campaigns. I did a lot of online work, texting, phone calls, knocking on doors, and speaking to family and friends. When you don’t feel politics is important this is where it gets us. It’s incredibly personal for so many. Yes, I will remove you from my life if you support Donald Trump.

No, it’s not because I’m a Democrat or fan of Joe Biden. I believe both parties are corrupt, and that’s how we got here. However, it is incredibly clear to anyone well-versed on history one side is far worse than the other. That harm reduction is better than the harm Donald Trump causes every time he speaks.

Right now we have Mars approaching an exact conjunction on the day of the inauguration here in the United States. I believe this represents planned chaos by a group of people who feel slighted. It won’t be unexpected, but my guess is it will be shocking nonetheless.

That’s Mars and Uranus, and the Moon will be there, too. All of that fixed Taurus energy squaring a fixed Saturn and Jupiter in Aquarius. This group of people (Mars Uranus) is going to come up against Jupiter (personnel, government, and law), and against Saturn (Authority and structure).

Someone on Twitter mentioned Venus is in Capricorn, which is derivatively 9th from Mars in Taurus. Now, this could indicate a foreign presence being involved, but I don’t think so. The 9th is about belief systems, too. These people are diving down rabbit holes of conspiracy theories (Neptune square Nodes), and really do believe they are acting courageously patriotic.

Adjust Your Sails

You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors. ― Andrew Boyd