As You Are

It will never matter how much agony decides to show up at my door. I’ve been through hell before. The flux and flex of shadow and light, pain and pleasure, and I am not afraid. I will continue to dive deep and witness myself. To use everything I have been through and will go through to self-actualize. To make sure I am whole myself first before I go trying to assist others.

After everything I’ve been through I am finally on this path of what I feel deep within is destined for me. I am bonded and rooted in my truth and my own being. I have transcended a past that could have suffocated me and left me limp and lonely. Instead, I turned my pain into a purpose, a blessing that sustains this path I am now on. Into a joy that lights up my heart.

I have gone through ego desires, begged what I never needed to stay, allowing unconscious patterns and conditioning to lead the way. I have redeemed myself. Everything always started out amazing, but always turned into absolute hell before it was over. It was up to me to allow those lessons to be a gold mine I can grow from, or a weight that I allowed to hold me down.

I have met shadows I wouldn’t wish on anyone, and in turn they revealed my own. I have moved through all of this and found a way to land on my feet, unscarred, never discouraged for long, and with an open heart to learn Earth’s lessons with a hunger and a thirst that is…